I decided to change the heading on my blog...too serious! I have been taking things so seriously that I completely miss the hilarity, fun and beauty that surrounds me. Why waste time worrying about EVERYTHING, which is what I have been doing much of my life. It seems to be what many of us are trained to do. Everything will go wrong if we don't worry about it. But how can we know what will happen? If we worry about a possible future, we never experience what is in front of us.
I have been thinking a lot lately about prosperity. Along with worrying, another one of my ingrained thinking patterns is that for some reason being happy, prosperous, and healthy is a bad thing. Having money is a bad thing. As a result, I haven't been able to let myself be sucessful, because that would mean having money, which is bad! Strange logic. I have realized that having money is NOT a bad thing. Think of all the wonderful things I could create in this world if I weren't spending all my time worrying about haveing enough, or not having enough money. I guess it is a paradox, with money I could do so much, but at the same time it is completely unrelated to my wellbeing. That is such a freeing notion.
Yeah, I've struggled a lot with guilt from being born into opportunities that other people don't have and probably never will. I just have to remember to not treat those people like statistics but like people. People whom God is caring for and has plans for and whose situations He is aware of. I should do whatever I can to assist and build up my neighbors, but also recognize that wealth is not the ultimate goal, but it's not evil either. May our hearts prosper! In this last job hunt I've actually been very tranquil: I think I'm finally trusting. It's a lovely feeling :)
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