Gratitude

I did something fun today.  I have been traveling since 6 this morning, in my car, and now on the train (where they have internet!).  I have been working on homework, and sleeping.  I just got a bit hungry and bought a bag of M&M's for 2 dollars in the cafe car.  At first, I kept berating myself because 1. M&M's are bad for me, 2. 2 dollars is a lot of money! Then I decided to just be thankful for those M& that I had two dollars in change in my purse (they only take cash...I never plan for that). 

I decided to change the heading on my blog...too serious! I have been taking things so seriously that I completely miss the hilarity, fun and beauty that surrounds me.  Why waste time worrying about EVERYTHING, which is what I have been doing much of my life.  It seems to be what many of us are trained to do. Everything will go wrong if we don't worry about it.  But how can we know what will happen? If we worry about a possible future, we never experience what is in front of us. 

I have been thinking a lot lately about prosperity.  Along with worrying, another one of my ingrained thinking patterns is that for some reason being happy, prosperous, and healthy is a bad thing.  Having money is a bad thing.  As a result, I haven't been able to let myself be sucessful, because that would mean having money, which is bad!  Strange logic.  I have realized that having money is NOT a bad thing.  Think of all the wonderful things I could create in this world if I weren't spending all my time worrying about haveing enough, or not having enough money.  I guess it is a paradox, with money I could do so much, but at the same time it is completely unrelated to my wellbeing.  That is such a freeing notion.